Transportation

Oh My God............

I was laughing so hard and Crying at the same time....  a real mixed bag.....

All I could do was try and sit down in a lounge chair in some  dingey sweaty hot lobby....  where the seats were black naugahyde and chrome.... and all worn.... 70's Motiff I suppose? perhaps  at a seedy border crossing?

I was attempting to reach out to you for I wanted to share... so I was fumbling with my phone.... and was going to text you among'st my hysterics ... but I woke up.... Sorry... I guess...?

I was going to text.... as follows......'This place is so sick I don't know if I am laughing or crying' actually both at the same time it would seem....

The police officers were laughing their asses off.... over in the corner... the one had his pants and shirt undone and his pistol belt down with his trousers.... and was  dry humping another office in a simulated sex act...  There was nothing really going on... and ... the whole crowd of them were laughing hysterically.... at the antic..... of....

I was watching from a distance.... and I too was overwhelmed... not with just the humor but with the sickness.... too....

Why I could not stop... I busted out in uncontrollable laughter mixed with crying....  I could not stand up... I  had to  find a place to sit.....

It was in some shit hole third world Country....

my head had been close earlier  to a whirling  chainsaw blade ....  and I thought how stupidly  it was I allowed myself to get in that predicament in the first place ... on my hands and knees.... the the chain saw was just running at full throttle... set on a shelf... chain a buzzing around and around  and sort just drifting off on  its own accord..... and my scalp  attached to my head was in a cubicle... inches away...  and I could not duck any further away from it.... as it drifted nearer.

sometimes waking up is a good thing........ maybe even always?